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.left, right, look up billy.
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[01 Nov 2004|10:17pm] |
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 i feel so fuckin special.
ok my life is boring so i cant really update. i didnt do anything for halloween becuz well yeah. so i sat home and was bored outta my mind. thats it. take care everyone. xoxo.
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[17 Oct 2004|03:50pm] |
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truth +good charlotte+ |
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emo days suck dick. i just found out that my friend that i havent talked to in like a yr is now engaged getting married. yeah im supposed to be happy, but how can i? he wont talk to me. its like how it was when we first met. ::le sigh:: try to cheer me up if you can. </3
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[17 Oct 2004|01:59pm] |
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well i havent updated in a week. i dont have an explanation. i guess all i can say is that im a lazy fuck.
news flash-
-ateriavia is staying at my house at the end of nov becuz im just so cool like that.
-eric and i are gonna have a contest to see who can get drunk the fastest. ***so everyone vote. me or eric***
-i like to sit in the bathtub to talk to my friends late at night when they call.
-saw "ladder 49" last night. good movie. i admit i actually cried. my makeup smeared. that was embarrasing when i came out.
-my kitty is sleeping on his back next to me on a chair.
-im fuckin hungry.
-my friend is starting a "caro fund" to get me to go to connecticut. so you people better be chipping in.
-my back hurts. i just pulled something.
and thats about all. nothing interesting eh? so yeah im sorry to have wasted your time. carry on.
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[10 Oct 2004|04:30am] |
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yep so i get to see all my HOES and mark in a couple of hours. im so excited. the mall and dollar movies for sure. dont get better than that. ok so im gonna go call mark right now and talk about today. gnite people. x OH x OH.
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| .hugs and kisses all around. |
[09 Oct 2004|05:03am] |
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i havent updated in like 3874837 yrs so here it goes.
-it hasnt been nothing but drama these last couple of days but its coming along i would say.
-im talking to like one of the hottest guys on earth right now. yay go me. btw he made my background pic for me. mark <3
-im so fuckin hyper i can not calm down.
-i get to visit my granny in a couple of hours in san diego whee.
-my lip hurts i dunno why.
-my stupid friend just left me to go shower. shes going to vermont in a few mins to visit family.
-my green eyeshadow rocks everyones world.
-i get to see markie, enola and rhianna tomorrow. yay. HOES reunited once again.
-i decided for halloween im gonna go in my pajamas instead, becuz it would be a lot cheaper then i can have like more moneys to spend.
umm i guess thats pretty much it. enjoy. x OH x OH.
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[27 Sep 2004|12:25am] |
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im so sad that you fuckin left you cunt checkers. sigh come back. we did have fun tho. yay. ok well kids yeah i hung out with some awesome people this last week. checkers-adam-rhianna-justin-gary-angela-sean-pj. and the stores. walmart- taco bell- soma(doesnt really count tho)- halloween costumes- jack in the box- starbucks- islands- norms. wow it was just a fun packed thrill ride. i even took new pics. yay im so special. ok well yeah you can put the names and places together and see what you can come up with. im to lazy to type everything out haha. ok im gonna go watch some tv. ttyl <3
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[23 Sep 2004|06:42pm] |
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so these last couple of days had been interesting.....
went to pjs the other night, cleaned up his room, then after awhile people got bored and decided to get drunk. yeah that was fucking interesting. we spent the night. i slept i dont think they did or whatever. but yeah i got like 2 hours of sleep. i had the biggest hangover ever. i couldnt walk so i stayed in bed coudled with pj and we kissed all morning. then he got tired and wanted to go to sleep and kicked us outta his house becuz he had to study for his exam and becuz some girl was gonna stop by after her class.
last night i went to san diego with rhianna and a special person(checkers). i went to see my friends band "larger than life". they fuckin rocked. it was his first show since his last band broke up. he was so excited. there were these two guys about 14 or something and they were like following him around making him sign shit and they took pics and everything. it was the cutest thing ever. during there show all these girls were like screaming at the top of there lungs and was like OMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGG haha it was amusing. i leaned over and whispered into checkers' ear and was like dude this is fucking hilarious hes like my best friend. i seriously enjoy shit that like. its kind of funny to walk up to him after shows and hug/talk and you see all these chicks giving you weird looks. anyways it was fun. all in all life is good for the most part. so kids im off to go be "bambi" for those of you who know what that is haha yeah enjoy that. xoxo.
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| bzoink is cool. |
[18 Sep 2004|10:01pm] |
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[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? :: carolyn.
Birthplace :: fountain valley, ca.
Age :: 18.
Age you act :: all between 15-21.
Current location :: orange, ca.
Eye color :: brown.
Hair color :: brown with blonde and red random streaks.
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? :: righty.
Zodiac sign? :: taurus.
Height? :: 5'1 1/2.
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality :: irish, german, indian, swiss and whatever else i am.
Your hair :: hmm well its up in a messy bun with my bangs to the side.
Your fears :: death, needles, being alone. that pretty much explains it-self.
Your perfect room :: something bigger than what i have now with my special boy and his stuff haha.
What you practically do in a day :: sleep. watch tv. play on the net. sometimes talk on the phone. and eat.
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse :: fuck and friggin.
Phrases you overuse :: ah mang and im hungry haha.
Your first thought when you wake up :: what time it is.
Your greatest accomplishment :: is....hooking up with someone special most people know who he is. sigh.
Something you want to do ::
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke :: coke
McDonald's or Burger Kings :: neither.
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera :: neither both suck.
Chocolate or vanilla :: chocolate.
Adidas or Nike :: adidas.
Black or white :: black.
>b>Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::</b> both.
Burgers or hot dogs :: do veggie burgers count?
Egypt or France :: both have there special things.
Rock or rap :: rock.
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke :: nope used to tho.
Cuss :: yes.
Sing well :: nope.
Sing in the shower :: no.
Talk to yourself --a lot-- :: sometimes.
Believe in yourself :: nada.
Like taking these longass surveys? :: its something to do.
Play an instrument :: nope.
Want to go to college? :: nope.
Want to get married? :: someday.
Want to have children? :: yes.
Think you're a health freak? :: nope.
Get along with your parents :: mom- yes dad- eh.
Get along with your siblings? :: yes.
Think you're popular :: nine (german for no).
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state :: nope.
Drank alchohal :: no.
Smoke :: nah.
Get high :: no.
Done any drugs :: no.
Eaten an entire box of oreos :: no. thats to fattening.
Been on stage :: no.
Gone skinny dipping :: no. im fat.
Been dumped :: nah.
Dyed your hair :: yeah. yay.
Stolen anything :: no almost tho.
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest :: venescha.
Loudest :: venescha.
Most shy :: rhianna and victoria.
Blondest :: sigh i dunno. me?
Smartest :: nobody sorry guys.
Kindest :: like everybody. well just the HOE family.
Best personality :: once again HOE crew.
Most talented :: derek, ces, justin.
Best singer :: hmm tough call. derek or justin? sigh i cant choose love them both the same.
Most ghetto :: ME!!!!!!! ghetto bootay.
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) :: queen- derek.
Pain in the ass :: no one really.
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style)):: nobody. i love you guys muah <3
Funniest :: probly rhia and tori since i hang with them all the time.
Best person for advice :: myself.
Dependable :: i dunno.
Trustworthy :: yet again HOE.
Druggie :: none. XXX mutha fugga.
Most likely to end up in jail :: hmm thinks.
Person you've known the longest :: my brother mazur muah <3
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream :: cant remember.
Last nightmare :: the other night.
Car ride :: earlier tonight.
Last time you cried :: last night.
Last movie seen :: "the others" on tv.
Last movie rented :: "velvet goldmine"
Last book read :: i dont remember the name but it was about a guy who had tattoos that came to life.
Last word said :: ok.
Last curse word said :: fuck i think.
Last time you laugh :: tonight.
Last phone call :: tonight.
Last CD played :: afi - sing the sorrow.
Last song you listened to :: silver and cold.
Last annoyance :: some girl i dont know whos been IMing me for like 2 yrs.
Last IM :: venescha <3
Last weird encounter :: dunno.
Last person you hugged :: my aunt kathy.
Last person you yelled at :: my mom.
Last time you wore a skirt :: couple of weeks ago.
Last time you've been evil :: a couple of mins ago.
Sarcastic? :: earlier tonight towards my cuz.
Last time you fought with your parents :: tonight.
Last time you wished upon a star :: like a yr ago.
Played Truth or Dare :: oh god like 5 yrs ago.
Spent quality time alone :: never.
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM :: yes RHIANNA <3
Do you feel lonely :: yes =/
Ever TP'd someone's house :: yes.
How about egging someone's house :: no dont think i ever did.
Do you not like dislike not like me? :: i dunno.
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? :: nope.
Yo Momma :: is sleeping.
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? :: nah.
What do you think of George Bush? :: hes a shitty ass pres.
Any secret fetishes? :: nope.
Do you like to wear chains? O_o :: yes.
How many languages do you speak? :: two. i know a little spanish.
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! :: a little.
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) :: yes.
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[16 Sep 2004|12:07am] |
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got new lip gloss today. dr pepper lip smackers. whee <3
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the only light we see +keepsake+ |
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so like yesterday i didnt really get up until about three sat around my house watched television and that was about it.
at about 730 or so i showed up at rhiannas house to pick up her and victoria. then it was off to the piercing place. agh. i was so scared. when we got there i was freaking out i almost backed out again i couldnt go thru with it. anyways you dont need to know the details about what happened all im gonna say it was boring and the piercer "tommy t" fuckin sucked balls. anyways i took the kids home and like yeah.
i got home and boy dont you know my mom was pissed she kicked me in the ass. but then she got nice and took me to albertsons to get apple sause, veggie burgers, veggie buffalo wings and ice cream. MMMM <3
then the night goes on. im bored. at about 1 or so i called enola becuz i was bored then her stupid phone died grrr. so i told her to tell venescha to get off i was gonna call her. all in all i called her whee.
the convos were interesting. talked about tHrOnE and dexter danger. i told her that derek said i was his best friend and he was mine <3 boys. then i started to text my neighbor becuz i was bored and i wanted him to see my piercing. but he was being gay and wouldnt take the effort to walk like 30 steps hahaha. so like yeah he likes me a lot and now he likes victoria too. how cute. haha so yeah thats my interesing night. nothing to exciting i would say. thats all for now.
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| stealings fun. |
[15 Sep 2004|03:52pm] |
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silver and cold +afi+ |
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In the past 48 hours have you..
01. Cried: yeah.
02. Bought something: yes my lip piercing <3
03. Gotten sick: nope.
04. Sang: yes.
05. Eaten: kinda sorta.
06. Been e.kissed: no =/
07. Felt stupid: yes.
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: nope.
09. Met someone new: yes. lots of hot guys at piercing places. hahahhah.
10. Moved on: nope.
11. Talk to an ex: yeah.
12. Missed an ex: heck yeah.
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: yeah.
14. Had a serious talk: some what.
15. Missed someone: a little.
16. Hugged someone: yes. victoria.
17. Fought with your parents:haha yes sorry mom.
18. Dreamed: possibly.
[ Current Clothes ] "insta core shirt" and green pjs.
[ Current Mood ] tired.
[ Current Music ] television.
[ Current Taste ] nothing.
[ Current Make-up ] green eyeshadow, eyeliner and mascara from last night.
[ Current Hair] being gay.
[ Current Smell ] the cat box. haha. stupid cat.
[ Current thing I ought to be doing ] cuddling with someone special.
[ Current Desktop Picture] nothing. blank.
[ Current Favorite Artist ] no-one.
[ Current Favorite Group ] tHrOnE.
[ Current Book you're reading ] none.
[ Current CD in CD Player ] afi- sing the sorrow.
[ Current DVD in player ] none.
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] lime green <3
[ Current Refreshment ] water.
[ Current Worry ] lots of little things :::sigh:::
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| by victoria <3 |
[10 Sep 2004|09:26pm] |
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afi-days of the phoenix |
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umm...hi and stuff. okay bye.
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| best song ever..... i love you <3 |
[08 Sep 2004|06:54pm] |
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ill melt with you +saves the day+ |
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Moving forward using all my breath
Making love to you was never second best
I saw the world thrashing all around your face
Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace
I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you
Dream of better lives the kind which never hate
Dropped in the state of imaginary grace
I made a pilgrimage to save this human race
Never comprehending a race that long gone by
I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you
The future's open wide
I'll stop the world and melt with you
I've seen some changes but it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you
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| stole yet again from vennie <3 |
[07 Sep 2004|11:44pm] |
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1. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN A THEATER ~ white chicks.
2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW ~ nothing.
3. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? ~ life.
4. FAVORITE MAGAZINE ~ its all about those kiddie ones with those gay pop stars. oooo and seventeen tee hee.
5. FAVORITE SMELLS ~ bod. justin.
6. COMFORT FOOD ~ zitos pizza and ice cream.
7. FAVORITE SOUNDS ~ tHrOnEs voices.
8. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD ~ pain.
9. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING ~ what time it is.
10. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE ~ del taco.
11. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME ~ boys- mason, avi, other cool names that i cant think of haha. girls- shallan, danene, yeah same goes for the girls. wow im brain dead.
12. FINISH THIS STATEMENT, "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY, I WOULD..." ~ get lipo.
13. DO YOU DRIVE FAST ~ sometimes.
14. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL ~ yes.
15. STORMS-COOL OR SCARY ~ cool.
16. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR ~ vw golf.
17. FAVORITE DRINK ~ dr pepper.
18. FINISH THIS STATEMENT, "IF I HAD THE TIME, I WOULD..." ~ drive to connecticut lol.
19. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI ~ only if its cooked.
20. IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR, WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE ~ hmm i dunno. the rainbow?.
21.HOW MANY DIFFERENT CITIES/TOWNS HAVE YOU LIVED IN ~ 5.
22. GLASS HALF EMPTY OR FULL ~ half empty.
23 FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH ~ hockey and wwe.
24. SAY ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS ~ vennie i love you.
25. WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED ~ nothing.
26. TOILET PAPER OVER OR UNDER ~ over.
27. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT ~ yes.
28. HOW MANY TRUE FRIENDS DO YOU HAVE ~ like 3 or 4.
last cigarette: like 2 months ago.
last good cry: last sunday. i miss tHrOnE.
last cuss word uttered: Fuck.
last beverage drank: dr pepper.
last food consumed: zitos sauseless pizza. mmm.
last crush: justin.
last phone call: enola.
last tv show watched: simpsons.
last time showered: the other day.
last shoes worn: my slipper sandles. so comfy.
last cd played: bush.
last item bought: eyeshadow. pj pants(gotta take them back to small). cd case. face wash.
last downloaded: hmm i dont remember that was like forever ago.
last annoyance: my neighbor.
last disappointment: when tHrOnE left.
last soda drank: dr pepper.
last thing written: justins name on my hand.
last key used: typing.
last word spoken: walmart.
last sleep: 3am-1015ish am. rhianna woke me up.
last IM: rhianna.
last weird encounter: ....
last ice cream eaten: two nights ago.
last time amused: two seconds ago.
last time wanting to die: this second.
last time in love: right now. justin <3
last time hugged: tonight. victoria.
last time scolded: tonight.
last time resentful: ...
last underwear worn: some pink ones with a cow on it.
last bra worn: black.
last shirt worn: this purple red one.
last time dancing: last sunday at the tHrOnE show.
last show attended: tHrOnE.
last webpage visited: livejournal.
1 MINUTE AGO: thinking.
1 HOUR AGO: watching the simpsons.
1 DAY AGO: at rhiannas with victoria.
I HURT: most of the time.
I LOVE: justin and my cat.
I FEAR: i wont die soon enough.
I HOPE: this next month goes by fast.
I FEEL: fat.
I HIDE: from people.
I DRIVE: everyone crazy.
I MISS: that special boy and that kitty.
I LEARNED: that life sucks.
I NEED: love.
I THINK: im ugly.
current mood: depressed.
current music: none.
current taste: popcorn.
current hair: yucky. i need to wash it.
current annoyance: nothing.
current smell: popcorn.
current thing i should be doing: driving to ct to cuddle with justin.
current desktop picture: blank blue.
current refreshment: nothing.
current worry: life.
1. What do you most like about your body? my boobs.
2. And least? everything.
3. How many fillings do you have? like 3.
4. Do you think you're good looking? fuck no. if i was id have justin.
5. Do other people often tell you that you're good looking? not really.
6. Do you look like any celebrities? nope.
A - Act your age - sometimes.
B - Breast size - 38c.
C - Chore you hate - none. dont have any.
D - Dads name - steve.
E - Essential make up item - eyeliner, eyeshadow, mascara.
F - Favorite actresses and actors - actress: angelina jolie. actors: antonio banderas, brad pitt and ben affleck.
G - Gold or silver - silver.
H - Hometown - orange, ca
I - Instruments you play - none.
J - Job title - none.
K - Kids - soon hopefully.
L - Living arrangements - mother and brother. soon to be with tHrOnE <33
M - Mum's name - kerry.
N - Number of people you've slept with - none.
O - Overnight hospital stays - lots when i was a baby.
P - Phobia - falling.
Q - Quote you like - "you dont even know me baby" derek (tHrOnE).
R - Religious affiliation - christian.
S - Siblings - 8 half bros and 1 half sister.
T - Time you wake up? - afternoon.
U - Unique habit - none.
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat - nothing really. i love veggies.
W - Worst habit - cussing.
X - X-rays you've had - knee. finger. arm.
Y - Yummy food you make - veggie burgers.
Z - Zodiac Sign - taurus.
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| love. |
[07 Sep 2004|07:43pm] |
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yay go me. i didnt have to sit around my house again. i spent the night at rhiannas with victoria. we spent the WHOLE day shopping whee. got new pretty make up. we're special. you know your jealous.
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| stole from freak. |
[04 Sep 2004|10:50pm] |
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white wedding +billy idol+ |
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4 things that scare me...
1. death.
2. needles.
3. heights.
4. you.
4 things I don't understand...
1. boys.
2. manly boys.
3. crazy people.
4. the weather.
4 things I am wearing right now...
1. make up.
2. clothes ( tHrOnE shirt and shorts).
3. jewelry.
4. nail polish.
4 things on my desk...
1. purse.
2. cds.
3. dishes.
4. fan.
4 things I want to do before I die...
1. go out with justin.
2. go to connecicut.
3. see keepsake again.
4. not be scared of piercings and tattoos.
4 things I like about my body...
1. my hands.
2. my toes.
3. my lips.
4. my hair.
4 things I don't like about my body...
1. tummy.
2. legs.
3. face.
4. arms.
4 things most people don't know about me...
1. im a loser.
2. gay boys are gorgeous.
3. my fav movie is "velvet goldmine".
4. my gifts will forever own tHrOnE.
4 things I say the most...
1. justin.
2. fuck.
3. im gonna kill myself.
4. thats gay.
4 places I want to go...
1. connecitcut.
2. france.
3. oakland again.
4. ...
4 screen names I have or had...
1. xvanishingheartx.
2. allthatsleftxx.
3. suicidehopes.
4. others.
4 bad habits I have...
1.
2.
3.
4.
4 things I wish I had...
1. money.
2. love.
3. justin.
4. new body.
4 scents I love...
1. justin.
2. my lip gloss.
3. my cat.
4. my shampoo/conditioner.
4 things I'd never wear...
1. things that people buy for me with out my consent.
2. ummm.
3. ....
4. ...
4 things I have done today...
1. ate.
2. played on the computer.
3. played with my cat.
4. watched tv.
The last 4 things I have bought...
1. eyeshadow.
2. lip gloss.
3. food.
4. jeans.
4 people I would like to spend more time with...
1. tHrOnE / monky / adam.
2. victoria and rhianna.
3. venescha and enny.
4. justin.
4 bands/singers I like...
1. keepsake.
2. tHrOnE.
3. the cure.
4. billy idol.
4 random facts about myself...
1. i'm going to be molko for halloween.
2. i hate people.
3. mashed potatoes are my fav food.
4. im fat.
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